If Only I Could Tell You by Hannah Beckerman #BlogTour #BookReview @hannahbeckerman @orionbooks @Tr4cyF3nt0n


Author: Hannah Beckerman

Genre: General Fiction

Format: Hardcover 368 pages

Release Date:  21 February 2019

Publisher: Orion

I would like to thank the publisher and Tracy Fenton for the invite on this blog tour and the copy of this book provided to me for review. Opinions expressed in this review are completely my own.


Audrey’s family has fallen apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two teenage granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. A secret that echoes back thirty years has splintered the family in two, but is also the one thing keeping them connected.

As tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago is about to surface. After years of secrets and silence, how can one broken family find their way back to each other?

My Thoughts

To begin with this books starts of as something of a mystery. Something happened between sisters Jess and Lily when they were young that completely tore them apart and resulted in them not speaking for the best part of three decades. I love a plot that centres around some unresolved issues so for me straight away as a reader I was hooked wanting to know what had happened that was so bad that meant two sisters would not speak or even acknowledge each others existence. 

The book is told primarily from Audrey, Jess and Lilly’s point of view, although the sister’s own daughters also have quite large parts to play throughout the story. Every now and then throughout the book we are given flashbacks into memories each of the characters have from that time. It was these flashbacks that gripped me to the story as each time the characters went back I felt like the story was slowly start to move forward towards finding out what the big family secret is. 

The tension between the sisters is absolutely gut wrenching and I could literally feel Jess’s hatred for Lilly as if I was feeling it myself. At times I had to remind myself that these are just characters in a book because the emotions from them really rubbed off on me! 

Audrey, the girls mother, is a character I really grew attached to. With everything she has had to endure through her life as well as trying to maintain a relationship with two daughters who don’t speak couldn’t have been easy to say the least. By the end of the book she was the character I felt I most related to and spent most of the time trying to put myself in her shoes and wondering if I could make the same choices and decisions she had. 

This is one of those books that really will stay with you long after you put it down, especially if you’re mother. The way that secrets can literally rip a family apart and ripple through time and change the course of so many people’s lives is so intricately woven in these pages. There are so many different concepts at play throughout this story and just so you’re aware, some are really heartbreaking so you many not want to read this book if you are in an emotionally vulnerable place. However, the writing is beautiful, even when it’s hard to read, and the author has done justice to all the plots at play. 

About the Author

Hannah Beckerman is an author, journalist and broadcaster. She is a regular contributor to The Observer, The FT Weekend Magazine, and The Sunday Express, and was the book critic on Sara Cox’s Radio 2 Show. She chairs literary events around the UK and has been a judge on numerous book prizes including the Costa Book Awards. 

Prior to becoming a full-time writer, Hannah was a TV Executive who spent fifteen years producing and commissioning documentaries about the Arts, History and Science for the BBC, Channel 4 and Discovery USA before turning her hand to writing. 

Hannah lives in London with her husband and their daughter.

For more reviews and updates you can follow me on Twitter @BooksBucks

2 Comments Add yours

  1. Shalini says:

    I loved the book and you are right, it was heartbreaking. Beautiful review 😍

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thanks shalini definitely need the tissues for this one!

      Liked by 2 people

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